Okay screw what I said, okay maybe not entirely. But i've decided that life is way too short to even spend one day wanting not to care or feel. I am just pissed off at society right now, does giving into society's ways really make you a better person? Well I think not to me it doesn't anyways. And maybe along the line that will make me make ( Read more... )

So a couple of days ago i'm quoting American Beauty....and now i've gone all bitter again...that lasted long haha. But the more I think about how the world actually functions and how society drills these logical life plans into your head, the more I get scared that one day I might have to actually buy into it. One day I might have to agree that ( Read more... )

i need to hate him.
because if i don't, it hurts too much.

whoa, i haven't written in this for ages, so much has happened in a year. i'm at uni and loving it. i've got great friends that i adore. and no boyfriend and i kinda hate him now ( Read more... )

i was just prancing around my room dancing to 'this is the day' by the the, i had the sudden image of the ending of empire records and felt the need to swirl and spin around. i'm crazy, i know. that cheered me up for a bit, feeling a bit blah as per usual, this time it's just the feeling like my life is going round and round in circles to the point ( Read more... )

i spent my last day with jamie yesterday, it was one of the hardest things i've ever had to do. we talked about what we were going to do, and we wanted different things, i wanted him back by november (specifically the 15th which would've been our one year anniversary), i guess it meant more to me. and he wants to come back in december. he kept ( Read more... )

i spent the day with jamie yesterday, just hung out at his. things seemed pretty much back to normal, we didn't really talk about everything that had been going on with us this week, but i'm gonna stay over on monday, so we'll talk about it then. he bought me a Rilo Kiley poster for my room at uni...i love it. only 300 were printed of that design ( ( Read more... )

it's been a weird week...a hard week. jamie's going to america two weeks today, and is not really sure when he's coming back, he explained his reasons for going and i understand, but it doesn't really make it suck or hurt any less. i'm still unsure about it all. we talked about it last night, and talked about what we want...i'm just not sure if it' ( Read more... )

jamie called last night, i didn't expect him to cuz i thought he would be drunk haha, but he called at like 1am. he didn't end up drinking cuz he ate too much seafood and his belly was sore :( i wanted to kiss his belly. we only talked for about 20 mins, but then i texted him again to tell him i loved him like 10 times, and he replied:

I love you ( Read more... )

jamie's in cornwall right now, he texted me this morning saying he wants to go surfing today hehe. i'll be seeing him on tuesday ( Read more... )