okay, so i guess this is an update of my life. i'm off the heavy drugs, and i'm working on my associates degree in whatever the fuck ever. i've been eating a lot better and smoking a lot less pot. there are actually days i see through sober eyes now. adam is gone and it took him beating the shit out of me twice and fucking a few other chicks, but i ( Read more... )

fuck this shit. it's not like anyone reads this anyways. peace out you guys.

i just want to be clean.

"I myself have never been able to find out precisely what feminism is: I only know that people call me a feminist whenever I express sentiments that differentiate me from a doormat or a prostitute."

-- Rebecca West.

i keep on thinking i have to call someone. i don't. but i'm not sad about it, i'm actually relieved. i feel like the whole weight of the world has been lifted off my shoulders. it almost makes me want to listen to lynyrd skynyrd...

...almost.

No, i'm not really a morning person. i can't believe all the shit i would have went through with if i would have stayed with adam. i was so concerned with following him and trying to make him happy and satisfied. i used to be so scared of the possibility of not being in a relationship with him, and i was rotting away in justified jealousy and all ( Read more... )

You realize there is often more happening than meets the eye and you respect the hidden realms and the magic that arises from them. But don't confuse your own darkness now with a lack of understanding. There is no time to waste by wallowing in pools of self-pity. Let go of whatever is gnawing at you. Say goodbye to your previous self and be ready ( Read more... )

this hurts the worst in the mornings and at night.

i hope to see your name in obituaries.

michele and i are going to her buddy's show at skrappy's and i'm hoping we're going to get trashed before hand so i don't slit my throat at this goofy ass screamo show. erik is leaving for california and i wish him the best of luck. wouldn't it be nice if it were that easy to run away. in other news, mental abuse is the new black. i rose early this ( Read more... )