i still feel like shit.

insomniac.
story of my life.

ahhh... feelin good. just had a great afternoon with brian. went to the dube, got coffee, talked about everything since it's been soooo long since we'd hung out. from there, listened to his band in the car, which is really good by the way, then to go see paul, which was sooooo much needed. god, it was so much needed. ah god. it was so good. so so ( Read more... )

im a good kisser
and youre a fast learner
and that kinda thing could float us for a pretty long time...

out and about today. staying busy.

myself and boredom are my worst enemies.

i miss you. i miss you so much.

i'm alone on new years. completely. i cant even write, you cant even imagine how i feel...

i cant believe i got through last night. ever try to deal with a drunk person that is like SET on committing suicide? let me tell you. its a bitch. A BITCH. fuck a bunch of that shit. fuck last night. didnt sleep at all. smells of vomit and beer sweat in this house. got up at 8am off the couch, cleaned the whole house, did the dishes, febreez'ed ( Read more... )

i spent christmas doing the same thing i do everyday. except jake wasnt here, so i was doing it alone. in this little apartment, going from computer to t.v. to bed. sometimes the bathroom and then wondering around the kitchen. then, back to computer to t.v. to bed. no christmas tree. no friends. no family. no food. no gifts. no laughter. no ( Read more... )

another lonely holiday season ( Read more... )

chillin tonite with 3 of my newfound best friends. people with beautiful hearts and stunning personalities. i'm lucky to have such friends ( Read more... )