this is how I know that I am pathetic. all I have been doing is drinking, sleeping, or working. a memory, or image will come into my head...and for the life of me I just can't figure out it it really happened, I dreamt it, or if it happened while I was drunk. sadsadsad..

things fall apart ( Read more... )

yes yes another journal that I never told anybody about
it's more personal
even though I rarely write in it

if I added you to my list, you give good advice
or I just like you

I haven't written in a really long time.
I've been using oh___ambivalent.
Things used to be wonderful.
Now they are the opposite.

I wonder why everyone in my family tries to kill themselves.
I wonder what's going to happen.

I'm not working tonight. good.
tipper wants to hang out.
lauren wants to hang out.
daniel wants to hang out.
patrick is hinting at hanging out.

I think tonight I will hang out.

so, I am writing in here to get away from EVERYONE I KNOW that has a livejournal reading my other one, identity_erased.

some of my friends disgust me. I hope I am a better friend to people than they are.

I am feeling quite content staying home tonight, friday night.