well. i am happy. happier. i worked things out with at least emily, and i have faith that if one of the other girls says something about bryan and i, that she will kind of defend me, or at least say that its not their place to say anything. tonight emily and ashley and i decide that all we all have "boy-faux's" not....boyfriends. a nice little ( Read more... )

i should be sleeping but i feel miserable, laying in bed crying. when i lay down after talking to my "friends" here im reminded of how much shit they talk about me. like i dont know. i sit in emilys room with ali and we talk like we are such good friends...but i then i remember what is really going on.... like there isnt always one of them that ( Read more... )

i had something of an entry going but....then i lost it ( Read more... )

i recently have found that i have some very wonderful friends here. i know a few weeks ago i wrote that everyone here was really selfish, but things have really changed. colin, bryan, becca, laura, emily, ali and i have really become pretty cool together and that makes me happy, minus the fact that last week colin moved back to boston. especially ( Read more... )

riiiight. mary's entry inspired me. i love knowing whats going on in her life. out in waianae all the kids are constantly fighting with friends, boyfriends, girls their boyfriends got pregnant (i teach in the #1 school for teen pregnancy in hawaii) aaand they call it "dramas" as in...."miss, i got dramassss" yeah, they call me miss. well, they ( Read more... )

alright so here is my post-earthquake update. i dont feel like writing but hey, i lived through an earthquake so i should document. the sad truth is....it was almost cool. it was strange because i woke up at 703 to call craig...i just woke up and wanted to say hi...i always feel bad because at 7 here its 1 pm there and hes been through half his ( Read more... )

lets seeeeeeeee ( Read more... )

okayokay. so i am on vicodin right now. please know that this is all coming from the heart though. seriously. i was just looking through my pictures from July...which really was the best month of my life. not because i moved to hawaii. yes, the was a good thing but i will get to that later. if you look through my july photo album you will see ( Read more... )

getting my wisdom teeth pulled has been one of the most painful experiences of my life.  the actual act....not painful cos i was put to sleep....but the 2 days following, have been totally miserable. ive barely left my bed and ive called craig at 630 my time crying cos im here by myself and i dont know what to do for my own pain.  nothing helps and ( Read more... )

i cant wait to get home for thanksgiving ( Read more... )