so yeah. found out some stuff about myelf and other people in these past few days. i'm really fucking tired of all this shit. but oh well ( Read more... )

so yeah. i'm really happy and really sad all at the same time. i'm really hurting - i'm not sure why i'm being ignored, which hurts more than actually losing that friend to begin with. but i'll get over it, i hope. lol. i'm really happy to be leaving, but i'm really sad to leave all of my friends. i'm going to miss everyone sooooo much - my little ( Read more... )

laura and sierra are still sleeping.... but i'm not. i have four more days... if i count right.

last night was fun. we went to dinner, oh man. we spent how many hours there? oh man... good times. girls night out. then we saw the princess daries 2. i want to see the first one- i loved the second one. but it made me feel so lonely... but i wasn't ( Read more... )

got some test results back from the doctor... going to take a nap.

( my fault )

i'm not sad anymore. i'm not distressed, and i'm not crying. i'm numb. i'm numb to the fact that i'm leaving in a week-ish, i'm numb to the fact that i'm still alone, i'm numb to the fact that i don't deserve what you offered. i had a very good evening, just hanging out. i feel a little ill, but i can deal with that. but right now, i wish i didn't ( Read more... )

so i'm getting really sick of this shit from my "best friends." i mean, i'm leaving in fucking 9 days, and three weeks ago, it was like, yeah we have to hang out a lot 'cause youre leaving. now it's like screw you bitch, why should "i" hang out with a LOSER like you (me).

damnit.

no.

damn you. how the hell could you do this to me? you ( Read more... )

So yeah. Spent a LOVELY evening with Kelly. You are awesome my friend. We made a campfire outside her house, and ate junk food and smores and all. it was really fun. we talked about a lot of stuff, too. :) on the way there, it was like, 9:30, and really dark and all. there was a tree down, in the middle of the road, at an intersection, it was realy ( Read more... )

I'm so much happier right now than I have been for the past few days....

Thanks Stephen for having me over.... you're a great friend, and i don't care what you say, YOU"RE AWESOME. I love you too. Eventually, you MIGHT get what yuo want.... let me make that descision.... Thank you for making me happy. Just hanging out, talking a little bit.... I ( Read more... )

( just for shanny )