So, it appears that my sleep schedule has returned to "HOLY CRAP HAYWIRE" status. 4am is my usual brain kill time. So I sleep until 3 or 4 in the afternoon unless someone calls me to wake me up and hang with me ( Read more... )

Alright, so I'm not really rotting. There hasn't been a day yet that I haven't spent seeing at least someone. I am consistently occupied, but I still miss him so, so, so bad. I wouldn't think that I'd get attached so fast, but hell if I didn't have to prove myself wrong in everything that I've thought about myself for the past three years. I could ( Read more... )

So being like this, having this hint of normalcy following me, its really strange. Its almost like getting used to a new body part. I'm playing with it, playing with the idea of it, over and over and over again. Its good though. Its a nice comfortable feeling to have that something extra again. Like before I was tensed up into a little ball all the ( Read more... )

its almost time to come home

i'm hyped, but there's so many people i'll miss at the same time

My head is in a really weird place right now. I know I'm happy, but I can feel all these frozen chunks of my emotions thawing and its heinously painful. Like the scars on my heart are peeling off by the scabs. You know it hurts, but at the end it doesn't itch anymore, and there's only that faint line of reminder ( Read more... )

Heart thaw, initiated.

Mood: Superior.

You know that feeling you get when you've been out in the cold too long and then you come inside and everything's hot around you? Pins and needles until you get back to normal temp? That's kind of what my heart feels like right now. Like, at first I had just my pain wrapped up and packed away inside me and I was just letting stuff leak out bit by ( Read more... )

So yesterday I went on a date with this construction worker that I met on anonirape(date). I'd been talking to him for a couple of weeks and we just randomly decided to get together because he sounded pretty awesome, and he thought likewise for me ( Read more... )

Its just another one of those moments. I can't stop sleeping. I want to wake up, but the city is so grey. The room is never bright enough. When I open my eyes it feels like they are still shut tight.

Seasonal depression is rediculous.

All my inspiration and passion is gone. Poof! WTf. Everything is a chore. I'm a ghost.

My body is absolutely screaming with hunger. I have this conflict of wanting to go grocery shopping and wanting to go back to bed. I slept all day after work because I was passing out at the keyboard there and didn't feel like struggling through photoshop. I told myself that if I woke up in time for psych I would go, but I didn't do that either XD ( Read more... )