Yes we have another live journal entry. I know this is a place that no one actually reads unless I say “hey Erica read this” because hey I think you are the only person I will actually tell to read it. Well I have gone to the point in my life where I am going to revert to my old ways. I’m going to start distancing myself from kids. I used to sit ( Read more... )

I must admit that I am only making this entry in this page because I know that no body actually reads this page. While on the trip to Ely in Alamo Ryan and I made a choice that I know completely will change our lives. We decided that the next time I go to the doctor (which will be in a matter of weeks) we aren’t going to put me on birth control we ( Read more... )

I hate it when i think i'm pregnant but i'm not. i show signs and i'm overtwo months late but i'm not. i hate it when i let my guard down and finally let myself hope a little hope and then i break down and take a pregnancy test and it tells me i'm barren once agin. i let myself hope this time. i let myself pray that there was a child in me this ( Read more... )

I never really knew cleaning could be such hard work ( Read more... )

I don’t think boredom is a strong enough word for what I feel right now. I’ve listened to wicked the entire way one and a half times. I’ve google'd everything I could think of half a million times… my brain hurts and I’m so bored I have no desire to do anything other than scowl and be cranky and BBBBBBBBBBOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEDDDDDDD I cant ( Read more... )

Dear Amanda ( Read more... )

so its six in the morning on one of my days off and i am awake of my own acord. now for those of you who actually know me you know its weird. now the real question is where am i. i am at my mothers house at six in the morning watching my sesion one house dvds. now why couldnt i do this at my own house? one the carpets are being cleaned today. two i ( Read more... )

To say that this job is making me loose my mind is only putting it lighty. I have tried to find other places to work but it seems like no one wants to touch me with a ten foot pole. i have a year and a half of managment expierence and no one wants to hire me, heck they wont even call me after i have applied. no one but best buy for "part time ( Read more... )

there are times that i catch myself watching him sleep. watching the slow rise and fall of his chest. he is completly perfect for me. i didnt realize it was possible to have such a fit. we blend ever so perfectly. we dont fight and we mesh. we like the same things and everything is blissfull. i look into his eyes and see my eternity waiting for me ( Read more... )

so i woke up this morning crying because i was getting my period after skipping for two months... i almost threw up because i was cramping so bad... and the best part was i bleed down the wall...