thingz have been... ... a bit up and down lately well acyually really up and down... i mean there are some really good thingz going on... and then therez sum really bad stuff... like i feel like ive AGAIN dug myself in2 a hole that im not gonna be able 2 come out of... or it will take me 4ever 2 come out of... im tired tho yo... itz getting bad... ( Read more... )

... ALL I GOT IS ME!!

ok... so thingz are wierd... and it turns out that she is not leaving... 4 now anyway... so thatz a lil wierd and now our relatioship has become even more wierd... im still fucking myself over in skewl... but it looks like i may have jus one more real chance... and i cant blow it... the way i see it, just as fast as these 2 yrs have gone by, the ( Read more... )

... but oh... i shouldve known they could... so... thingz have really taken una vuelta mala (a bad turn)... out of everything the past 8-9 months, this hurts the most... i dunno what hurts more... the fact that shez leaving... or the realization that she never really loved me the way she said... ... or thatz my understanding of it... how come good ( Read more... )

... everyone pisses me off... thatz why i dont have many friendz... bcuz, very frankly, im not good at dealing with ppl'z shyt... and apparently ppl arent 2 good at dealing with mine... i mean i tried in the past couple weeks 2 a month 2 socializ e a lil... and do u know what the result was?!?! me getting pissed off! im tryna pin point the time ( Read more... )

... so... needless 2 say... i am sumwhat content... so i let her go... and... she came back... shez mine! yes! hahahahahaaaa!!! ok i jus got really excited... but yes the reunion was sorta random... i dunno... maybe we'll try thingz a lil differently this time... i'll let yall kno how it goes... oh yea... my birthday is 2morro... and erryone around ( Read more... )

"If you love something, let it go... If it comes back , it's yours... If it doesn’t, it never was ( Read more... )

... So im writin 2 weeks later... and itz really crazy how thingz have turned upside down... i cant believe that i no longer have the one thing in life that made me smile... i cant believe itz gone... i cant believe i gave up on it... how do u jus give up on something that u love so much??? i always said that i'd hold on as long as you didnt let go ( Read more... )

"I just wanna say that I'm In Love...I neva thought that I would be for a very Long time. This month has been okay...despite the Drama we've be experiencing. We talk about so much...and I've NEVA been intimate like this in none of my past relationships...(damn I'm getting all intimate with yall). We like to talk about everything...and the weird ( Read more... )

... skewl has started and i still havent been updating... truthfully, i jus havent really felt like sitting down at the computer and perusing my thoughts... but even if i felt like it i wouldnt have time... i werk like erryday... actually it would have been erryday but stkes didnt put me ont he schedule 4 mondayz and that may be a permanent thing ( Read more... )