i once knew a girl and i named her september;
her yellow hair could strangle you.
she fell into love with a boy named december;
he kissed her until her lips turned blue.

that's not something you get up from.

days like today and nights like tonight help to remind me that i'm an insanely lucky girl.
i need to remember this.

i think about every dirty, little secret: anything that appears warped about myself, and how all of the delicate wires in my brain are connecting to new wires, and making me a new person. but i know what parts i need to keep and what flaws i can't wait to get rid of. i hate to think about how my mind and body will never be the same, and how i'm ( Read more... )

the most remarkable thing about coming home to you
is the feeling of being in motion again,

it's the most extraordinary thing in the world.
i have two big hands
and a heart pumping blood
and a nineteen sixty-seven colt fourty-five,
with a busted safety catch.

the world shines
as i cross the macon county line,
going to georgia.

the most ( Read more... )

you're still playing for a love you'll never find; it keeps me thinking maybe i'm not good enough. or maybe you just fucked up for the last time.

i'm so scared, all signs are leading to it. and tomorrow i will find out.

i wonder where you are.
please don't come around tonight
'cause i can't stand to see you and i don't want to fight.
gimme one more drink and i swear i think i'll be ready
to make the same mistakes again with you.

i finally figured out that you're not coming back and i'm not going anywhere.
you were the one with all the faith how did you let it ( Read more... )

stay grounded, let go; stay grounded, let go; stay grounded, let go;
i have so many ideas, i can promise brilliance, i can have hope, i can smile,
but in the end: i'm fucking crushed.

you don't exist to me, and i wish you never did;

i'm undecided about you again
might not be right that you're not here
it's double-sided, cause i ruined it all
- but also saved myself, by never believing you, dear.

everything good, i deem too good to be true
everything else is just a bore
everything i have to look forward to
has a pretty painful and very imposing before.
now you know, little ( Read more... )