"i 've realized what a new orleans lunch is"
"what is it"
"you have it at 3:15, and you have it with a big bottle of wine"

the big easy

made it to new orleans in three days. i live here now and i do not think i could be happier in any other place. being surrounded by people who have different opinions about the same subject every other day is driving me nuts, resulting in the same type of thoughts. there is something about sticking to something and following through.

 I am moving on friday. i just need to be somewhere warm. not that place has anything to do with how a person really is emotionally. i do not like letting people down, but i would rather do that than be uncomfortable. i am a pretty damn selfish person sometimes. give me some advice about anything

i'ma going back to school at the end of march.i just want it to be over with,. always stressed out about money always going out. big news big news.

portland rain rain rain snow! you look pretty awful. there is a house. no money no internet except at the creamery. no job. stienlager shrimp cookies corn pops. trying so hard. getting something i have always been disgusted of. i am so far behind.

like has been  a complete vacation for the past few weeks and on sunday i will be pushed out into having complete responsibility of everything and i am scared. owing my parents three thousand dollars is stressing me out. having a job, not just for the sake of extra money but to pay the rent and oh my gosh bills. i have no doubt that I will be fine ( Read more... )

 i feel pushed to the side by all of my friends. people i consider friends don't add up to being many. money is stressing me out. i had a dream that i could not ride a bike because the front wheel kept turning to the right and i couldnt control it. i could not get where i was going as quickly as i needed to or hoped. i kept getting hurt and just ( Read more... )

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my mother says "you seem content" i respond with "have i not previously when you've seen me". then "well sometimes it's different, but you seem content with what you have decided to do ( Read more... )

ahha everytime i find myself moving, particularly in the step of dragging the heaviest bag up stairs or down hallways i say to myself out loud that i am never moving again. of course i would have to move out of here sometime, but it's sooner than planned. it is always so strange when i look at everything i own, or everything important that i own ( Read more... )