holiday/christmas decorations, commericals on tv, etc etc etc makes me want to go home so bad. RIGHT NOW.

 i do not really know. i have a fifteen page paper due on friday and a plane to catch on wednesday. i have to do my laundry and pack up gifts and myself to spend thanksgiving with someone elses family. i am letting my parents down. fifteen pages is not easy. i feel like i am just waiting for this period of life to be over. but i have to study for ( Read more... )

new. old!

it's how 1pm sun looks like 10am sun. and how i despise the wet sand on the roads and how it's impossible for me to stop shaking. ITS SO FUCKING COLD. it's shopping for all things and sweatpants. hazelnut lattes and white m&ms with gray letters on it. it's all this, just leading up to summer. start counting.

it all started with pictures over spanish because the teaching doesnt do it for me. it lacks something bigger. running away from someone and standing in the hall after the bell for no reason. phone calls to my mother and "let the office deal with you now". so much for passes. school on saturday and credit appeals. sweatshirts stating that you are ( Read more... )

starting with last year and the amount that i hated it all in all. ( this time. m a y b e its looking up. jinxxxx.but in boston it started with the Beijing house lazy susans and the mass stealing of chopsticks. cherries and fires with flirting. new years eve dorking it out at return of the goddamed king wishing i was on the end of the aisle. 3 ( Read more... )

my dad took pictures while making chocolate chip cookies. things like this make we wish i had a huge family. huge whereas you can't even move a step in the kitchen without ramming into someone stuffing themselves with food. i'm gone tomorrow.
"i couldn't really care, care any less about you"

while driving we went by a store called "dollar dreams" and the first thing i thought to myself was, 'no dream can be fulfilled with a dollar'. that's almost sad. nothing is better than alcohol in the winter when it makes your cheeks burn even though you can't even feel anything else.

gifts are always better when they are a surprise.