Love isn't supposed to be easy. We've all heard that. Usually about the time when we were getting our heart broken to pieces. It was motivational and reassuring and honestly the truth. Love isn't easy. If it were easy, it wouldn't be nearly as rewarding. However. And this is a big HOWEVER... Love isn't supposed to be THAT hard. I'm so incredibly ( Read more... )

Thought about finishing up the rest of the case of beer tonight on the driveway. Just me and a few thoughts I haven't given myself time to think about yet. Just me. But the stars weren't out so I went inside too. They wouldn't have been much company anyway. I forgot how dead it gets here late at night. Too quiet for my loud thoughts ( Read more... )

This feeling in my chest.. has got to go. If I could just pinpoint whatever it is that keeps bringing me back to her, I'd avoid it. Or find whatever it is that makes us not okay, I'd fix it. Our relationship has become unhealthy and most of the time I feel like I'm nothing. I feel like I'm being played for a damn fool because she can just have me ( Read more... )

Wow.. this thing has become some kind of buried treasure time portal thing. It's interesting though to look back and remember exactly how I felt and exactly who I was feeling at that moment. Trying to summarize up my year would be a mad game of catch up.. so I won't ( Read more... )

And... I miss her every day.

I started off this entry with "One day I'll have this all figured out." But then I had to erase it because immediately I thought.. Well, do you ever stop learning? Does my dad - 46 years old, stable career, stable life, married the woman of his dreams - ever learn something new about himself? His feelings? I'm trying to put all the pieces of myself ( Read more... )

AHHH!!! College!!! Stress, life, learning. One day I'll map it all out...

Got back from orientation yesterday. It was unnecessarily long and I think they planned the whole 'walking across the entire campus to do anything' a little too seriously. But other than that, it was good. I knew I loved West GA, buttt I love it more now. :) I can't wait wait wait. Me and Jackie were orientation buddies, and I met a girl who we ( Read more... )

I guess this is the point where I start taking life more seriously. I guess this is the point that I realize what I deserve. This is where I begin to walk on my own. Hello legs ( Read more... )

Is it the image I portray? Or is it becoming who I am? Are my actions a result of thoughts, or are my thoughts a result of my actions? When is enough? When will I stop, when will I be satisfied? Will I ever be satisfied? I'm thrown and I don't know how to get back up. Back up to what? Control? Was that happiness ( Read more... )