Nothing last forever. I realize this the hard way. And I realize that there is someone out there for everyone,its just going to take me a little longer to find out who is out there for me. I have been spending time with all these people and its comforting and it just doesnt seem like its enough. I miss her so much I hate her guts. But I shouldnt, ( Read more... )

Im going to school to work as a paralegal
I work as a security guard right now
Im training to become an EMT
Im moving to CT
Ill be in texas december 28th January 3rd
I start classes again the 2nd
I still hate everyone.
Im still in love
Things arent easier

But I havent been happier...Im moving to ct. Things are changing.

i wont ever forget her
to bad she forgot about me

Are you hanging on for hope? The clock strikes past the hour. Is the pain enough to choke the life out? You may never get to sleep. Your time is not your time tonight. Her smile will make you weak and proud. Do you ever miss her? Do you feel the cold wind whisper? Is there anything more deafening? Are you hanging on for hope? It's all you've got ( Read more... )

This is bad, its getting to me. I cant believe I said all those things to her, my attitude and lack of trust cost me the only thing I would do anything for. I have the picture of her kissing my cheek in a frame, I edited it on my computer two weeks ago and put it in and its on my desk. I have every picture shes ever sent me on my wall. Some people ( Read more... )

School till 10
3 security interviews
finishing my project for her...

Your still all that matters to me..

I knew it would end like this. Im broken up, Im miserable. She walked out of my life again. She said our promises to be together forever meant shit and that were never going to speak again. If you love someone, set them free right?

My mom said If I wanted to go see her next week or the week after shell gladly send me. But I dont even know if she wants to see me. Im upset by all of this and Shaun helped a lot last night but it just cant end this way. Im looking up plane ticket stuff now, hopefully her decision will be one that will make us both happy. If Im not with her I wont ( Read more... )