The past couple months(4 or 5) I have really spent alone. I dont go to shows, I dont hang out with anyone, and I dont bother to call anyone. And it is so unlike me, but so much has changed. I hate going places and having people all like oh man where have you been and this and that, ugh like its not like something personal I just needed time to ( Read more... )

Things are like better than I expected them to be. This is what love feels like. Total and complete willingness to forgive, forget and just embrace someone. Things are so good I just dont know if its to good to be true. Im moving out next year possibly getting an apartment in long island. Shes moving here if she doesnt go to school out there. I am ( Read more... )

Went to the beach tonight by myself....drew my name and hers in the sand...

OK So I got an invite to the biggest Gaming party of the year. Free ticket and Air fair december 2-4th 2005 in san francisco. I signed up a long time ago, and Im on team New York wit like 50 other kids, 2 of which I know. This school year seems to be shaping up, this is something I am definitely looking forward to. I think ill give my thumbs a rest ( Read more... )

Im going to ask her to marry me

She gave up everything for me in the past couple of days. I love her, theres no question about that. Now I just need to save up money and find a cheap apartment. Anybody out there know of any good places. Ugh shes going to be here in 18 days, I dont know if I can wait that long. Shes been sending me faxes and calling me saying she misses me. I just ( Read more... )

Last night was a night that reminded me just why I dont go to shows anymore. It was good to see my boys, but honestly kids that cant take a joke get out of their cars and then get in my face are lame, bouncers that get in my face and threaten to kick my ass are lame, travis 2 lying to everyones face and actually going to shows again is lame, 14 yr ( Read more... )

Had my school orientation yesterday, and I have never been around a bunch of non english speaking, nu metal tools in my entire life. But whatever, I left the orientation early and just laid on the beach for hours and eventually fell asleep on there. I let some little kids bury me and I helped them build sand castles. I joined the school newspaper ( Read more... )

I sure do hope she has fun tonight hanging out with that kid who I fucking hate cause I know im going to get no sleep worrying over that scumfuck trying to make a move on her. But then again I have nothing to worry about right? She said I love you, and I didnt say it back which caused her to hang up on me. Right now how could anyone blame me for ( Read more... )

But the New Amsterdams are playing soon. In two months in brooklyn. Whic hmakes me very, very happy. I am definitely going to see them. Im going to try to get a couple of people to go with me, its hard to find good company these days. But I got a good month or two so that should be really fun. This along with that cute little girl im speaking to ( Read more... )