due to recent events and much thinking... i have in short acquired a gift... and i wont waste this gift on myself... i will have to put it all toward the one i love... because... what else would i do with it? to do anything but this would be... unforgivable for me... i wouldnt be able to live with myself. i may have broke down crying before... but ( Read more... )

okay... this is it... the end... i am not going to use this again after today. today is the last time. sorry but i just cant do this anymore i have something that i have to concentrate on and i cant spread my concentration too thin right now. sorry... everyone...

before i get to the main point of this entry i would like to touch on a few things that have occured recently. yesterday i went to Dawn's apartment and i did some cleaning and her room looked much better after that and when she got home she was mad at me for letting heather go get brigette by herself... sorry but the only thing that is more ( Read more... )

so she says that the only reason she took the morning shift was because she thought her friend wasnt going to go judging for yugioh today... SHE DIDNT EVEN BOTHER THINKING OF ME!!! jeez... what do i have to do to... i dont even know anymore... i cleaned up her room yesterday... i wonder if she even appreciates it... i intend to do much more for her ( Read more... )

i dont know why she chooses now of all times to start reading what i have to say and then she just gets mad at me for what i write down instead of trying to help... i wonder if i will ever be able to speak in a way that doesnt incite anger in her... i just wanted her to smile and it seems like all i can do is piss her off... it hurts so badly... ( Read more... )

okay... so she wants to get me things that she thought i would like but that i wouldnt normally ask for, and it just so turns out that all the things she thought i would like that i am not used to getting happen to be things that i probably wouldn't like much and probably wouldn't use; also she says that these would be gifts that she put alot of ( Read more... )

This isnt a big deal, but it did hurt... so i had let her know that i wanted to play a game with her online, like an MMORPG and she had been thinking about playing one...so i suggest World of Warcraft cuz i am already playing that and i have some friends who play and i would like it if she played, or we could play Ragnarok Online, since we both ( Read more... )

i am very close to being finished... but there are some files on my computer that are encrypted for some reason and i cant seem to decrypt them for some other reason and i am debating whether i should just delete them or not... its alot of songs... i suppose i could since i do have a good deal of them on cd already... i will make a decision soon ( Read more... )

1. Reply with your name and I will write something random about you ( Read more... )

my computer is coming very close to being finished and i think it should be done by tomorrow... we will see, but it is close.