So here we are again ( Read more... )

Hmm. So it's almost halloween. Almost my dad's birthday. Almost my birthday. And all those holidays.

Sometimes I just wish I lived completely alone, like, a hermit. And that way, I wouldn't have to fake those cheese ball smiles. Yeah, that'd be nice. But then again, I'd probably never get out of my funk.

I think I'm slowly getting it together. I  ( Read more... )

okay so, Phil and I are on the outs. But not really, I don't even know. He did something that was not cool at all.. and it hurt alot. But I've fucked up too in the beginning. I guess it just hurts now, because I thought we were past all this shit. But I can forgive him, I already have. People make mistakes. And I don't think I could ever be with ( Read more... )

So I'm on the phone with my mother right now. Sort of awkward. She talks alot, must be where I get it from. Hah. Anyway I Haven't talked to my brother in like ohhh I don't know, 3 weeks. He's kind of a douche. Well not kind of. IS most definitely. Want to know why? okay I'll tell you... After my father died, Brian was home for like 2 mths, He took ( Read more... )

I was going to post this as a bulletin on myspace but I thought I'd better not. but I still wana get it out so here it is ( Read more... )

okay so here's the reader's digest version of why my life sucks. I just lost my hero.. my father died on october 22nd. I miss him more than anything.. even writing those words breaks my heart. I can't function anymore. He was my rock. You know how some kids are like ew my parents are so annoying? not me. I checked in still even though I didn't have ( Read more... )

well its been a while. seems i start out most entries that way. I don't really have much to say. Life is still exactly the same. It's always the same, just a different set of issues. It'll all come together soon though. I hope. mmk bye.

yeah. i never update. i'm on livejournal all the time though. how sad is that ( Read more... )

so............... ?

i can't really explain it. BUT ( Read more... )