This journal is now ME only.


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My Grandpa died. heartbroken.

it's weird that today all i wanted to do was come home and sleep. Now that i'm here and i only have an hour until rehersal, sleeping is the last thing on my mind. The fucked up part of it is that i think i'm reluctant to go into our bedroom and lay down next to him, who is still asleep from last night. We fought again last night, but i'm sure when ( Read more... )

Called my mummy because today is her birthday. Of course in a matter of seconds, she weasled my problems right out of me. Oh that maternal instinct. Too bad she talks so much about how we can "solve things before they get out of hand..." that I forget where they began and why they were still around anyway ( Read more... )

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i want to photograph my dreams. Cage all the people i love to see. the only loss of control that's comforting.

the name is haunting me and i can't belive i opened my mouth. i don't feel like a bad person for doing, i feel like a bad person for telling.

my heart started beating and i was pound, pound, pounded into the chair.


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we kiss goodnight with a firm handshake *

there's labor involved in below zero lust
my ribcage is loosened,
keep hearing pieces fall to the floor

this is fantastic for you*

silence and salience
your backbone against wall
your bones protrude so far
I can't remove then from my memory
stuck too deep, splintered my train of thought

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