Today I woke up, layed in bed, and stared at my bedroom ceiling for a couple hours ( Read more... )

I just got off the phone with mike ( Read more... )

I've been crying for the past 30 minutes.
I need something to put my head on straight.
I'm not feeling like its even possible.

How long should I allow myself to be a fuck up?
Is fuck up hyphenated?
I like nutmeg and cinnamon.
My chest hurts from anxiety.
Should I start taking the anti-anxiety medicine I was prescribed?
Should I move back to St.louis?
What is a good step to being more productive?
I need to cut my bangs.
I need to try harder to be more social with my family.

is everyone as lost as i am?
am i just the product of my environment?
is everyone different but we are all the same?
does it get better?
was it already the better?
is there any reason?

I feel hopeless.
someone swoop me up.

growing up is hard ( Read more... )

Today I felt sad. I felt sad mostly all day. It wasn't like a crying crippling whiny sad...I felt bored and indifferent and lazy. It's quite awful. I'm concerned with getting depressed while living in the quad cities. I have no meaningful relationships here. Sure I have family but our conversations lack substance ( Read more... )

I've lived in the Quad Cities for 5 days now. Things are going well. I enjoy hanging out with Kelli and Darren very much. I hope I am useful to my family here ( Read more... )

I had a date with dustin miles last night ( Read more... )

Last night Bolton and I shot-gunned beers and rode around to some bars. It was fun and the night was perfect.

I'm dramatic and selfish and silly.

I don't know what I want to do but I do know I want it to be fun.