I've been putting this off for way to long. 34 weeks, according to livejournal, which has matured a lot since the first time I posted on December 11th. That was a day after my sister got into Cornell. Here I am, the morning I leave for Cornell myself. I don't know what to do with myself. I've finished all the necessary packing, just not all of ( Read more... )

I wonder how one's life can so drastically change with one word and yet everything remains untouched. I saw the word "Congratulations" in bold at the top and I didn't understand what was going on. My eyes hurriedly scanned the screen for a word they understood and stopped; acceptance ( Read more... )

I'd much rather be stressed, horny, and lonely in Ithaca than in Wayne.

All my applications were submitted tonight.
I can't do anything else.
Fuck, I'm so scared.

And Sometimes Y and W My name is Andrew and Andrew ends in a w. W is not able to warm its listener with a tender glide of an r or an l, or to shock its listener with a crisp bite of a t or a p, or to humble its listener with a tiny whisper of an f or a v. Andrew does not rhyme with anything, no matter how hard I try to make pandroo a word. This ( Read more... )

nowaxxy22: thats why u and me mesh so well cuz we compliment each other i have the confidence for the both of us and u are the moral support of the group
tender cacophony: you get the sex
tender cacophony: and i take the emotional discharge
nowaxxy22: haha so fucking true omg
nowaxxy22: im sorry


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I feel like I owe it to you to make this entry, even though there has been no substancial closure to "Summer" or whatever you'd call these past ten weeks. It's only right that You cried today, Mother. I'd go into my analyst bullshit, but even I don't want to sit through that ( Read more... )

so here i am... my last night in this program. i'm not sure what i'm supposed to feel. people, namely jennifer calantone, have told me this has been a growing experience and while every experience should make you grow, this one certainly yielded a lot more growing. ( here are some things i've learned: )

It's been an entire month of being here at Cornell. Those of you who are actually reading this probably are the same ones who've kept in contact with me over the last 30 days and know exactly which words I've used most to describe this experience, namely: terrible, miserable, lonely, the worst decision of my life. This is mostly for myself so I ( Read more... )

As often as I say I'm lonely, though frequently I complain about the people here, no matter what I say about walking ten miles daily, I am enjoying myself here. I need to keep reminding myself to chill with the petty stuff and think about the big picture. If I get upset everytime someone excludes me, everytime someone walks away from a ( Read more... )