I can feel people pushing me away, which sounds awful, but I guess it's better than having everyone say "why can't you be home" and making me feel guilty: whaddup, optimism! I know six weeks isn't exactly the longest time to be away from home, but it is longer than a week-long vacation and is more than 50% of my summer. I'm just scared, I guess, ( Read more... )

I'm satisfied with my life, only satisfied. I feel pretty close with three friends and everyone else is either really distant, really stupid, really boring, really annoying, or both. I'm okay with that, but I'm not okay with being single. My three best friends have other people and when all of us hang out I feel like that single middle-aged man ( Read more... )

In six months I'm going to start applying to schools and this time next year i'll pretty much know where I'm going. Please let me live to see somewhere other than this town as home ( Read more... )

"You know what else I think? I think you're going to have a great time with whatever you do in life. Remember not to take anything too seriously though. We're all just going to die someday anyway, so just enjoy whatever makes you genuinelyhappy inside."
~The Valedictorian of Pompton Lakes High School

Large Group Reflection after reading all of ( Read more... )

lol story of my life

and i got into the cornell summer program

Tomorrow is the last day of Black History Month and I'm kinda sad because I didn't make any big plans like "Hug a Nig" night with a whole bunch of friends, even though I made up that event just for the sake of writing this paragraph.

My humor has been changing. Obviously I find it funny because it's my humor, but I'm hoping at least important ( Read more... )

I'm happy. Just happy. And things are finally satisfying and I'm laughing a lot and I'm so aware of everything. Today I was sitting down in my car seat and the car was in motion but I wasn't but I was and there was this moment of calm. I love living.

This is how I am feeling.

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LOL KEVIN BACON

I got a 1 in AP Studying for Midterms. I only got As in Accounting, which isn't a real class, and Latin, where the midterm was entirely in English ( Read more... )

I have a New Year's Resolution.

I have to keep it. It's not like I've presented myself options.
This is all in, do-or-die, giving it 110% and any other cliche that applies.