i don't know that i've read my journal since, well, a while. it's always interesting to see where i was in my life two years ago...to see what's changed (and what hasn't)...and to see things that i shouldn't have seen two years ago (and stopped them). i think i'll start using this again. things are looking up, i hope they stay there ( Read more... )

it's summer. i'm in a pretty constant state of exhaustion, but that's okay. i'm finding it more difficult to care about anything, but i'll snap out of it eventually, i hope ( Read more... )

it doesn't matter how many people you surround yourself with, how busy you keep yourself, or how well you think your close friends understand you.

at the end of the day, everyone's on their own.

you know, it's funny how twisted my reactions to things have gotten...it seems like the worse it hurts, the more apathetic i get, until something as silly as seeing an older guy that comes into panera for several hours every day at a bookstore, and then realizing that he probably spends all his time frequenting coffee shops and bookstores just to ( Read more... )

and i still don't really understand, but i think i do a little bit more, and it makes me that much sadder.

i just give up up up up. i hate this feeling and not being able to get back up. you were the only one who ever understood it.

i feel a lot lighter...i love trisha.

dearest journal ( Read more... )

gosh. what to say? life's been occasionally eventful, i went to the modest mouse concert with trish and dani, and that was simply AMAZING...mostly, i've been working and being at home a lot more than i've been going out, but as always, when i do get a chance to go somewhere, i can't get over how incredibly lucky i am to have such amazing friends ( Read more... )

self control is so much harder than it would seem.

yesterday was a really, really, really good day.

i love everything and everyone.