how am i in one piece? with all the explosions inside sparking chaos, i could ruin this with a kiss, take you by surprise until your lips cease to form a circle and say the word goodbye, you have made me sigh, and cry, and redefine things already left behind, all the things i left unsaid were things i could never say if i knew the words existing as ( Read more... )

And we wait above a road ( Read more... )

maybe when you find out that I’m dead,
you’ll realize what you did to me.
i'm trying, so hard to be ok, but it isn't working, all day i think of you, think of you and dying, i reached out to people, only when i couldn't hold myself up anymore, but it's no good, i screamed, and cried through out the day,( cried till my eyes stung )

i'd marry you
the third day
of the third month
of next year.

my mind is not working as it should be. nothing is as it should be. and i can see myself falling deeper, and i see myself hanging from your tree. i'm going to die in new jersey, i'm going to go die in new jersey, and you wont be at my side. life without you is suicide. did you ever see it this way? did you ever think it was me or no one else, i ( Read more... )

that's not what i wanted to hear, you are not understanding all this, don't lie to me, but dont tell me i gave it all up for nothing... i don't know what else i coulda done for you so that you could be happy, you were supposed to be mad at me, and think me something i'm not, then move out with you friends and have all of your precious fun, and i ( Read more... )

well it seems my stupid ass has no more razorz, but i resosrted to my old last resorts of breaking the head of a shaving razor, but these bitches see to be suicide proof nowadays, but not fire proof
1. FIRE

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...that's what she wantedyesterday was a bad day, but today is a better one, up and busy and about with little shit i meant to do if i ever had the time... sitting, staring out my window with a cigarette between my fingers, i thought of you, and i harbour no bad feelings towards you... there is this calm melalcholy where you used to be, and it's ( Read more... )

so i got to thinking about how sick i actually i am, and how close i was to being terrible, and i just keep thinking, that if i stopped taking these steroids, and anti biotics, and the two other drugs they got me on to treat my asthma/pneumonia, it probably wouldn't be long before i was dead, and that thought is so very temtping to me... in my ( Read more... )

My sister(tragicending) is in the hospital with a lung infection and a headache that is severely painful and wont go away.