I'm absolutely petrified of this. I suppose I knew at somepoint that it would happen. I wish that it didn't have to. I want to go back in time...so I could avoid this I would not have made sure I stayed awake or made sure that I threw up November 4th 2004. To avoid that happening I would have done just about anything. But the truth is that it did ( Read more... )

I can't believe that I am still torturing myself over something that makes no difference now at all. Something that doesn't matter. Insignificant and stupid. I shouldn't let it ruin my day..or anything. But I'm regretting friending him on myspace...that's for damn sure. Maybe I shouldn't say anymore. I have nothing to say really anyway except ( Read more... )

All I want for Christmas is some blow pens and a sketch book...seriously folks. This is crazy but I can't get my mind off the amazing collage Victoria and I did my sophomore year and how obsessed I then became with blow pens. I need some...like fo shizzle...some cheap art supplies?? glue, watercolor paints, markers, lace, different coloured candles ( Read more... )

There is heartache and there is grief and there is tragedy and often times there is death and beyond that there is hell...forevermoreI've been really trapped inside my head of late. Talking to Dave at midnight on the stairwell in his apartment building last night got me thinking about things that I shouldn't think about...or maybe I should, maybe ( Read more... )

Sometimes I question how much I've really grown. Sometimes I think what if it's all a farse? what if I'm just convincing myself that I'm doing better, when in reality I'm just the same as I was before. Chilling thoughts. I'm trying to get to a place where it's not always a split scene..where I'm not calm on the outside and thrashing about, ( Read more... )

I feel really inadequate, uneducated, insecure, self concious, hideously ugly, incapable, unsure.. I'm having an identity crisis ( Read more... )

80's dance party tonight kicked ass.
My room is smokey.
My feet are cold.
It's 2:00 a.m. and I'm not at my final destination for the night.
I drove all over town and got lost a bunch tonight/this morning.
I'm excited about tomorrow.
I got my 60 day chip today.
I kicked ass on the SAT's.
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It's supposed to snow tomorrow.
Note to self: Dress

When you chop up the day into 25 minute incriments, it goes by a lot faster than you might think. I find it to be very disconcerting. Time is advancing too rapidly for my taste, thank you ( Read more... )

Today is world AIDS day

THE EPIDEMIC:Between 36.7 and 45.3 million people worldwide are living with HIV or AIDS ( Read more... )

Lots on my mind to say the least...

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