alright, back in new york after almost a year hiatus, without permanent housing for another few weeks, working a lot. the people watching my cat for the summer fucking TOOK HER TO FLORIDA without telling me they were moving and now i have to pay to fly her back up here, that's some shit ( Read more... )

i want to clarify that i was only reading over this semester's issues of the NEW SCHOOL FREE PRESS!!!!1111 because i'd already paid for the hour of internet and i have some time to kill before my bus leaves. that being said, it baffles me how they can have it explained to them, time and time again - in letters to the editor that they print, no ( Read more... )

clarification:

been in mexico for a month now. not coming back soon.

when someone reshapes your entire existence and then you never see them again they become a concept/idea instead of a human being/mortal. this is absolutely deadly. associations form (contentedness, safety) that become inescapable. just a person like everyone else like everyone else just a goddamned person. how long does it take?

point of clarification. leaving new york after this semester. going to mexico for a while, sans academia. coming back to brooklyn/school eventually, no idea when. would take that job in new orleans if it wasn't so damn hot. this month reminded me that i like the cold. working full time and in school full time. if you don't see me that's why ( Read more... )

a year ago, i had a real place, a real group/project, a real idea of what the fuck i was doing.

so uhh, i'm leaving new york for a while.

a few days ago it hit me that school starts in a week and i panicked and decided to finally take time off from college like i've been saying that i need to do pretty much constantly since i came to college in the first place. that this is really not the right time for me, etc, i've known this since freshman year but i somehow keep making excuses ( Read more... )

"the difference between occasional nervousness and a panic disorder is roughly equivalent to the difference between a tension headache and a brain tumor"

i've had a good number of bad ideas in my lifetime. i know, i know, so has everyone, but hear me out - today, i decided that, after a year of hardly biking at all (and smoking a lot), it would be perfectly reasonable to bike almost 25 miles in one day (12+ miles to work, 12+ miles back), including the williamsburg bridge both ways ( Read more... )

spent a lot of today trying to register for fall classes. i only managed to actually register for one class, but the basic futility of the whole business was at least somewhat compensated for by the wealth of academic information that i obtained in the process ( Read more... )