I wish that I knew things. Like... Thoughts, feelings, what makes you happy, what has made you sad. I just feel like I don't know anything and that you're being distant. I don't feel good and I want to make things better. I love you very, very much.

And I guess it'll be cool that I'm a senior. And that I could see her on the weekends. And that I'm keeping my job. I really miss Pierre. And Alison. I am feeling really bored. I think I'm going to go do something.

Why does it seem that everything that I hate or don't want to happen... Happens. I'm so fucking stressed out. This shit needs to stop. I tired of feeling like shit all of the time. I'm tired of making her feel like shit. I just wish that things would feel easier for me. I'm worried. I hate this.

So, I hated today. Anyone with me?

I feel really bitter today. Tonight better be good.

This week has been the longest week ever. Alison's been out of town so it's been werid not really talking to each other. I miss her terribly. Summer's pretty much over. I really hate this.

The illiterate should go to school.

Fat people should lose weight.

( This is a waste of time. )

Yesterday Alison and I were very, very cute. I ran through gardens and stole sunflowers for her. We went to the park and lied in the fields. We watched the thunderstorm on the drive way. We even played in the rain. So, everybody, once again, get jealous.