I've been okay. I realized, suddenly, that I don't feel any bit of love toward her anymore. I suppose I may still love her, but the feeling of it isn't plaguing me. Oh, I still have some gut-wrenching feelings when I think about her, but not because I'm so sad that we're not together. Mostly it is hurt, anger and disgust at her caprice and ( Read more... )

Finally, some kind of reaction to the letter (more like a dissertation) that I sent her. It shows how little she cares. She says as much. That hurts. A lot. But it also makes me angry, and that's better than feeling sad and nostalgic ( Read more... )

when you feel empty inside? When something is gone that you never knew was missing? I have always been fine on my own. "Relationships are more drama than they're worth," I would always say ( Read more... )

I've been a responsible, finacially independent adult for years, but the past few months have taught me the difference of being an adult in college, and a recent college grad with tons of debt living in poverty. As stressful as college can be, even trying to figure out the financing of it, it can't compare to the stress of dealing with endless ( Read more... )

Wow, so I haven't updated in five months. I don't have time. I actually had intentions to write every day again once I started City Year since I knew it would be a crazy experience and I'll never remember everything. But that idea went out the window pretty quickly. I work 50 hours a week, I have after-hours meetings sometimes (I'm on City Year's ( Read more... )

Back from Mexico. It was a lot of work, and kind of stressful, but fun for the most part. If I had known what it was going to be like when I registered, I wouldn't have signed up, but I'm really glad I did ( Read more... )

I graduated.

Ivan and I broke up. (Oh yeah, I never even said in here that we were together.)

And I turned 22.

In that order.

Now I'm in Mexico. I missed traveling.

I haven't felt this way in a long time ever.

Graduation in less than two weeks? Really?

So last weekend was great. Well, for the most part. There was a bit of a rough start, but it ended on an amazing note. Ivan is really great and we have so much in common it's crazy. Yet at the same time our personalities are very different. It's a good match. He's trying to come up with an excuse to leave next weekend to go to Coachella with me. I ( Read more... )

I need to update. I've been meaning to for so long. I need to chronicle my last semester in college before I forget all the details ( Read more... )