7 months later I am still dating my first date :) he is actually my boyfriend and coming to ohio with me. I am happy <3 and possibly in love ( Read more... )

i am proud of myself. it is a nice feeling-especially when you get recognized for all your hard work. i've decided i need to only surround my self with positive energy.....and do things i love ( Read more... )

the only thing i know for sure is that i am still figuring things out.

 i have a life here now.

a life I normally enjoy and lover very much. except for right now.

when i stop being busy and surrounded by 100 people-i realize how lonely i feel.  i no longer am nomadic. it is not as comforting as I thought.

my house is big and scary and cold and dark. this only makes me feel more alone. 

i have perfected the art of coming and going. i tend to be the one to come silently and leave abruptly, sometimes with lots of chaos and noise so i dont even have to worry about saying goodbye. my last night in ohio was good, but very typical. same friends, not much ever changes.

i've always avoided emotions-well at least my own. things always get ( Read more... )

we've come full circle ( Read more... )

9 days... is scary ( Read more... )

there are some people i just feel drawn too. the kind you want to sit by, accidentily run into when you out,  and listen to for hours. the ones who seem like they have a story, an interesting point of view, new ideas..who like to argue and joke to break uncomfortable silences ( Read more... )

alcohol.. is funny. it is interesting to be the wasted one hearing stories about yourself the next day. It is sometimes even more interesting to be the sober one. Tonight I was happy I was sober...because i came to the realization that i deserve good lets. My tea fortune today said "let it come to you" quite profound..if i do say so myself. But ( Read more... )

I am usually a great sleeper. I am a world class napper. I just cant seem to fall asleep tonight. Normally it takes about 2.5 minutes and I am out. Tonight that is not the case. I dont know why. i  have just layed there with my mind racing full of crazy thoghts, and ideas and reflections ( Read more... )