I am starting to wish i had a person....i've never really truly had a person. like the person you can say things to..things you know will sound super stupid and you will regret/ feel dumb saying the instant they leave your mouth. Today i heard greta say something..that i think is the basis of all my problems. ha. she was talking about kevin and her ( Read more... )

I would die to have your kind of confidence. i guess i am just different...i know i am unique and corky and have some interesting points but i guess i dont think that they make me very special or at least merit that other people like me ( Read more... )

i am a stupid girl.. and  i dont like it.

there is so much to say....

is being forthright a bad  chaarceteristic? It is odd to hear that other people say nice things about you..

i really enjoy dancing.. i wish i was better at it.. and then i woudld really. really enjoy it.

 i feel like a stupid girld. i dont like it.

life is going to be okay.

i just cleaned out the fridge. i feel old.

but i am a lot happier than i was 7 days ago.
even post-fridge cleaning.

it's funny how life cycles.

( i wouldn't have posted this if i didn't want you to read it, jen.)
it is not an i am in love with you letter. it is a i love you letter. there is a big difference.

you,
i have been staging this conversation in my head for a long time-and it has never happened. tonight i was praying (something that wasn’t happening enough in my life until lately-i ( Read more... )

i told you so ( Read more... )

i just want to be healthy...and happy.

i'd actually even take only one of the two right now..

i get into moods. those-i need to be alone, or say i need to be alone but really want attention but not 'oh whats wrong attention' but instead 'i just want to exist with you attention.' i just feel like i have a lot of figuring out to do ( Read more... )

so. i am feeling old. or maybe just surrounded by people who seem to have grown up by 10 times in the last 6 weeks. As much as I am honestly happy for all my roommates, i know the constant coupley thing is going to grow old fast. Just tongiht-jenny went to josh's for dinner and a movie, hannah to jeremey's for dinner and a movie, and cana and matt ( Read more... )