I think i am happy for them. not in a i am jealous, but need to act happy because htey are my best friends... but in a true happy way.

to a new year.. things are changing

the one thing i do know is that i have a great family. who i love a disgusting amount. We may not always be happy or nice or getting along. we may be busy, lose touch, not call each other back and definitely argue..but they are amazing. At lunch with mike and ashley's baby-i could not get over how much love that child was born into. Amazing parents ( Read more... )

should i just accept i will always love people more than they love me ( Read more... )

being home is funny. i just reread the previous entry about how ready i was to leave school.. oh it only takes a month and i am so ready to go back ( Read more... )

There are more people who consider me their best friends..than the number of best friends i have. I spend all my time listening...and its become expected of me. I ask questions, i want to hear more. Sometimes I just want to talk...last night i was reminded what good friends are like..best friends. the kind who listen-even though they know what you ( Read more... )

i am sure i will almost always sleep alone

i can't make myself happy anymore ( Read more... )

i dont like the person i am ( Read more... )

sympathy is a funny thing. i have never been the recipient of it before. i feel like the summer has been full circle-there is some kind of closure in death. i have had three not so pleasent months...(perhaps in comparison to the spring or just plain crappy) and this last weekend was the final push...to a new beginning- a new year, a new life..or ( Read more... )

family, drugs, black people and love ( Read more... )