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i always have so much i want to say but i never have enough time to say it. this is driving me crazy, and i can't do anything about it except make it worse. i feel really helpless, and it hurts, and i'm hurting a lot right now and i'm trying but i don't know how to ease myself out of it.

days feel weird when i don't see kavi. i know that sounds dramatic, i don't mean for it to be dramatic but i always feel like something's missing. i'm a little more optimistic because i have a lot of confidence and security in us, i just feel a little emptier when he's not around. wow i'm so lame but i love this kid so much, he's my other half. i ( Read more... )

i haven't felt this sad and alone in so long and i don't know what to do :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

i don't wanna be home right now. the idea of living back on campus is worse, i feel like for my own sanity i need to move somewhere and have a little more independence. :(

stony brook has been sucking the life out of me this semester. i don't care about school, i've never been so unmotivated in my life. i really really really need a break or something, i don't know. i wanna be a teacher. i wanna work with little kids. it's the only thing that makes sense for me, i've been working with kids since 11th grade, and stony ( Read more... )

fuck this semester, i hate it.

i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it I HATE IT.

kavi and i got 2 fishhhh and i think it's my favorite thing that happened all summer. i'm not ready for school and for summer to end, this was by far the best one i've ever had. <3

i have so much on my mind that i want to say but i'm not and it's starting to affect me in a bad way.

joan elizabeth cusumano i literally would not be anywhere without you in my life. you are the most genuinely selfless and caring person i have ever known and i have no idea how i'm lucky enough to be best friends with you. you honestly will never understand how much i appreciate you, i love you so much, thank you for being so incredible every ( Read more... )