Seems like I'm finally getting some of my shit together and I'm not gonna lie, it feels friggin good.  When you get to this point you always look back and go, "why the fuck did it take me soo long to get here??"  But I'm not gonna overthink it, I'm gonna let it flow.  I'm finally doing things that I want, when I want.  If I feel like coming home ( Read more... )

These past few weeks of work have mentally exhausted me.  I thought it was no worse than how it used to be when i was stressed out to the max with school but apparently this is affecting me much much worse.  I mean last weekend whenever I would come home from work I couldn't sleep because I was anticipating everything I'd have to take care of the ( Read more... )

 i really need to figure out why i'm soo tired all the time, this is not normal.  however, im sure starting my new workout routine this week will help me sleep at regular times and have more energy in general throughout the day...we'll see how that goes.

in other news, went xmas tree picking for the first time today which was really fun actually.

I took a huge step this week.  My horoscope the next day said that an action I had taken the day before will be successful which, even though horoscopes are usually bullshit, happened to be very convenient and gave me a lot of hope.  I'm really hoping it's not wrong.  I need to get out of this hell hole, if I can get out of here for a year and get ( Read more... )

Why can't I fall asleep at a decent hour when I have to wake up early the following morning ( Read more... )

it still feels like june, man it all went by soo fast.  but for the first time, i'm ready to come home, i'm ready to hear a familiar language and converse in more than rudimentary english in an engaging conversation beyond the superficial 'oh ur not israeli? where u from?' lol...i'm just ready ( Read more... )

okay so this is what is going to happen from now on...
I'm not gonna tell you how I feel about the things you do anymore.
I'm not gonna tell you about work.
I'm not gonna tell you about school.
I'm no longer gonna vent to you about anything.

I am going to tell you, however,...
who I'm with when I go out.
where I intend to go before I go there, and ( Read more... )

So I'm basically gonna have no life for the next 3 months. I thought I would be able to drop FAH374 but apparently, my mistake, I cannot. BLAH!! This means that i basically have 4 assignments due every week from next week till the end of the semester! I mean I could drop it but then I'd have to take a summer class and then wait to graduate in ( Read more... )

K well I totally can't study...my mind is on other things that are coming to my attention at the most inconvenient time. Procrastinating too the max right now, especially since I have, oh, about 12 hours till I have to leave for class and I haven't even started yet ( Read more... )

Every so often I fall in love with him all over again, and not because he did something romantic or did me a favour but just for being who he is.  Today it was how cute he was being, I just wanted to spoon with him all day.  A few times I would just look at him and I'd get this feeling.  It sounds so gyae but that's how I know that what I feel for ( Read more... )