started my day off by singing teenage dream on repeat voyaging to school with pamela. chemistry exam 2 midterm. for once i understand the material and know how to work the problems.. but as usual i run out of time to fully complete some of them.. how infuriating. an hour and twenty minutes does NOT show how well i can find the enthalpy, final ( Read more... )

i just feel like i want so much more than this. i feel like all of a sudden i'm walking towards my future and i feel numb.. i just want to be able to feel the way i used to. i want to wake up and be somewhere else.. i want to start new. but here i am in this repetitive routine. 

It’s so sad for us
when we find ourselves
giving away, giving away
and it’s a shame for us
when we find ourselves
going to waste, going to waste
so throw away the love that we made.

(I know, I know)
and nothing’s going to change that
(I know, I know)
and nothing's going to change that hopeless feeling
I get when you say you'll understand and I ( Read more... )

i'm mentally and physically exausted. i sleep, eat. work. study. and apparently fuck up. it's like no matter how much effort i put in. no matter how much i try.. i'm still fucking up on these exams.. and participation and homeworks aren't going to keep my head above water.. i don't know whether to quit my job or cut down my hours.. it's vicious ( Read more... )

maybe a  year or so from now, i'll trade in this complex road of a future i have into something a little more simplistic and enjoyable.
i wish i knew why i wanted him back in my life so much lately.

i had a weird dream that i was getting married.. it was one of those dreams where you never see the groom, you're just preparing for this chaotic ( Read more... )

reading through old entries september 26. 2007: (this was the entry)

dunno: i don't think i've felt this lonely in a really long time. even my best friends feel like distant strangers right now. this isnt even worth writing.

hahaa.. maybe i haven't changed as much as i thought. maybe i always feel lonely in september.. maybe i need to get a life ( Read more... )

things feel so different. i'm not miserable.. but i can't tell if i'm really happy at all. i'm kind of just blah.. school is draining me and when school isn't work is.  i finally got put on as a lunch server at work. i start serving thursday. i guess i just feel like no one is around to care or give a shit as to what's going on in my life ( Read more... )

i'm sick of feeling so alone lately. i feel like i've lost touch with everyone. even my closest friends seem so distant lately, it's pretty pathetic when you spend your friday night's alone or hanging with your sister.. do i have boring friend or don't bother calling me up written on my head?

i'm content and excited with my life. i'm excited about the new chapter of my life, going to a new school, meeting new people, getting involved in new things, and moving one step closer towards what i want to do with for the rest of my life. i'm content with the people in my life lately. i'm with people who can appreciate me and i have a lot of fun ( Read more... )

congratulations men! you did it! i can officially as of this night peg you down as the most pathetic species in existence. way to go! or perhaps it's the women... i can't quite decide. what the fuck is up with girls these days? aside from one relationship where i was a little uneasy about the context of a male to female friendship.. i don't think i ( Read more... )