I do not know what is going on with me. I have been having an so much trouble controlling my emotions. I was in class today and it was like out of nowhere my whole world felt like it was crashing down on me. I was trying to focus on my drawing, but suddenly i could hardly think straight and everything was spinning. I just wanted to lay down and ( Read more... )

The crawling minutes are moving like the growth of grass, and my inability to catch the minutiae of time passage is making it hard to bear this last stretch of time ( Read more... )

I have two huge art projects due, Midterms and I am having trouble getting started let alone finishing anything....I cannot wait for school to be over if only so that I can begin again in grad school. I miss Joe and I hate myself. So in the grand scheme of things life could be better. I am probably as behind as humanly possible in half my classes ( Read more... )

So my valentines day present to Joe is going to be late because I left it at his moms house cause she said not to worry she would send it out. Then on thursday I find out it hasnt even been sent yet. Now I feel horrible because I know he sent my present awhile ago and I couldnt even get his in the mail in time ( Read more... )

So I am 2 weeks behind on homework for one class and week behind for another. and I am sitting in front of this computer screen continuing to not do any of my homework. I tried to read the article for my homework that I have to review and I couldnt do it. I cannot focus and I cannot make myself get on track I dont want to do anything I really just ( Read more... )

I am not sure why I am still using this livejournal. I mean I liked having it for a long while but I feel like i dont write in it enough, Maybe I willl write more later. I used to write all the time. I broke the addiction and now I never write and that is sad waste of journal. I feel almost obligated to write.... Another reason I keep this live ( Read more... )

Of course I am sleepy I mean it is 5 am and I have yet to go to sleep and I am sure I got 3 hours of sleep yesterday but today is another story altogether. I am tired and as my eyelids draw closer to my lower lashes you would imagine sleep would commence correct, no of course not instead I am left with so much on my mind wondering the true state of ( Read more... )

My wedding is 21 days away and I am wondering what is going to happen. What is going to change after this. What will marriage bring. Will I be a good wife, and do we have what it takes...I have to believe we do, my illusory optimism that my marriage will be in the half that do not fail. I can't believe in divorce, I have to believe in love and hope ( Read more... )

I don't know what it is. No actually I think I do. I think I am tired of feeling so alone. I am tired of watching other people be all over eachother. I mean people fighting over sex, I wish fighting about sex was my biggest worry or concern or thing worth fighting about in my life ( Read more... )

I wish you were here. I am trying to cope with my constant loneliness but I feel it is constantly being pushed further toward the more lonely. I am visually influenced by almost everything, it seems everywhere I look I see you. I am constantly seeing people around me who having eachother are locked in embrace and I am falling further into this ( Read more... )