holy moly, last night was a lot of fun.... for the most part. sarah marina and i went to bryans and got the party started around 10. i had a fifth of burnetts and while i didn't recall the act of drinking 3/4 of the fifth, i do remember seeing the near empty bottle in the table. YUCK that thought makes me feel sickly. so pretty much marina and eric ( Read more... )

i hate him i hate him i hate him. AHHHHHHH. why can't anything just ever fucking work? i'm so sick of this feeling. i always think i can handle seeing him, but i just can't. its just waaaaayyy to hard for me to except how much hes changed, he just isn't the same person he was like 3 years ago. like even when i saw him, it just still wasn't the same ( Read more... )

i want carson so bad. he's such an adorable cat, and he deserves the best home, which i KNOW i could give him. it makes me so incredibly sad to think that each time i go back to the shelter, he might not be there. while it would sooo good for him to get a good home, part of me would just miss him so much, and i feel like sooner or later my mom will ( Read more... )

i've just started volunteering at this cat shelter in arlington called purrfect pals. my job title is "cat socializer" so pretty much the whole time i just get to sit and hold kitties and just love them. its really the best volunteer job i could have ever stumbled across. it makes me incredibly sad though. all these cats are just soooo wanting of ( Read more... )

so all in all, yesterday fucking kicked ass. the assembly was definetly amazing. the game was alot of fun (minus when my ass was displayed for all to see) and maddies was just hella chill. duncan on the other hand is pissing me off. i hate this shit, because the fact that we have something going on, but we're not obligated to one another, gives him ( Read more... )

gah, duncan is so frusterating. i don't even know if i want to continue this because its just getting annoying. i'm so impatient. you either want to be with someone or you don't. i don't like being strung along. he just wants to see where this goes, and i just want to pick and path and take it.

so yah, today was interesting. now he doesn't know what he wants. he says he likes me but hes not sure of anything. tells me not to worry. good god, it just makes me mad that he just assumes i'm infatuated with him and want a relationship. i mean i don't know what i want, but nothing i've done would imply one way or the other. GAH i hate it when, ( Read more... )

gah. duncan and i kissed last night and it was really good. i'm actually starting to like him and now i'm freaking out. liking someone is alot of fun, but the fear of rejection and just other shit is scary. i really don't know anything about him. what if hes a jerk? what if hes kissing other girls aswell? gah gah gah. i haven't answered cory's ( Read more... )

wow, so last night, shit just really hit the fan. things have been really weird between myself and maddie and kathryn, and they've just been hella standoffish and bitchy towards me for a really long time. so finally last night (when i was drunk) i just couldn't take it anymore and i started yelling and screaming at them, which led to this huge ( Read more... )

uhhhhhhhg. i'm living in the past and it sucks. i'm remaking one of yee old pump up mixes because i just realized that i haven't listened to it in forever, and i have no idea where it is. so all these songs started playing that just brought me straight back to about 8 months ago.... or so.... gah, everything was just soo simple back then. friday ( Read more... )