Oh, I just wanna go home. I don't know why, but I haven't felt at home in so long. I miss the warming feeling of it...back in my old house...when everything was good, and right. There wasn't any drama, rarely any tears, or me just wanting to give up on things...why does it have to get so hard as we get older? Teenage years...the best time of your ( Read more... )

so...everythings okay...right? I don't know anymore. I know that theres no use fighting it, I'm already gone. in stupid love. not a lame kinda thinking maybe, but a for sure kind. ive only felt like 2 other times, maybe just one. but w/e, this is my 3rd. Marcus is so great, I mean...idk how to explain it honestly. I just...honestly love the boy. He ( Read more... )

Indeed. July 4th was badass, for the most part. I spent it with Marcus, his mom, her friend, and Andrew. We went to the woodlands to see fireworks. I got to stand with Marcus holding me, while watching the fireworks, and it was sprinkling on us. it felt great. Then we went back to Jackies and stayed there. Me, Marcus, Andrew, Vickie, Jonathan, Kyle ( Read more... )

Daniel's freaking out at me. I've been busy lately so can't always chill with him or yet...get over it. We have the whole fucking summer you know? I'm so tired of fighting with people because now Steven's actually all pissed at me. or...upset. He doesn't trust me anymore, I found that out recently. It sucks. I told him the truth last night, about ( Read more... )

oh shit! today...was great. today had to have been one of the best days I've ever had. well...for the most part. It was just fun. I had to go to school at 9:30 so left about 9:20 to start walking. Steven sees me and picks me up and takes me the rest of the way. I was happy to see him. I took the history final, kinda easy, kinda hard. w/e, I know I ( Read more... )

everythings going wrong. its funny. I hate it. It's annoying. I can't believe I made the mistake of telling Jessica that I had smoked with Marcus that one night. I can't believe I trusted her. She went and told on me to Steven. Because she "cared." yeah...whatever. She told him that I did that, and that I wanted to try ecstasy as well. Thats not ( Read more... )

Ooooh tonight got better! or I guess its considered last night now. but yeah, I went to Slick's with Daniel and met up with Marcus, Kellie, that guy Mike and everyone else. Then Daniel and I went to WalMart to get my mom a bday present and mothers day gift...which I have to go to a different one to get something better and when we came back ( Read more... )

throw blow, nobody knows. who cares. eww I'm listening to country...hah and liking itttt ( Read more... )

aww guess who wants to leave soon. for gooood. w/e. it doesn't matter anymore, nothing really does. schools lame, but its about the only thing I actually care about anymore. I wanna pass my shit and be done with it. one more year and I'm through.. at least until college.. which I may or may not be attending. it really doesn't matter to me anymore. ( Read more... )

very scared right now. he means the world to me. hes going through the roughest time right now and I feel so absolutely helpless.. I want to be able to help, somehow. anyway. if there was anything in the world that I could possible do to help him, I would do it in a heartbeat. no questions asked. I love him so much, hes one of my best friends. i'm ( Read more... )