Do you ever try so hard to forget something that it always seems to come back no matter how hard you try?It seems like everytime i turn around i see something that just rips me to the core.Its hard not to get upset and throw shit and ask the same old questions.You start to wonder when the lie started,how much do people really know what she did,why ( Read more... )

These are the moments i hate,the times when im alone with nothing and have only my thoughts.Its so easy to get myself worked up over things,tonight i came up with some things that i had never thought about,somethings that i think about that really piss me off ( Read more... )

Even though i dont really want this as much as i use to,but its just something i thought of.Why is it a person misses somebody they dated for 6 months in a rollercoaster of a realtionship that was filled with lies among other things,but when it comes to somebody they dated for 4 1/2 years and for the most part was good they dont miss and at times ( Read more... )

Every time i turn around i allow myself to get put through the blender for her.I keep doing it over and over for her and she fucking doesnt get it,she really doesnt,she pisses and moans over him when she knows nothing of loss and hurt,and its all over her.I wish i had the heart to erase her from my life,to delete her aol account,to take her names ( Read more... )

Went out with the family today to Keenland,played the ponies,didnt win shit but oh well.It was ok,would be better with diffrent people like friends and women.Dinner was awesome had Raffertys always damn good food.Now i sit here bored and not knowing what to do,also kinda lonely but hey thats everyday for me......

Ohhhhh how i love it when my dreams make me feel like crap.You think after this long that shit would be over but it's not.It really is a slap in the face the way some of them go,even Mark has made fun of me over one.I'm just really tired of it,cause i wake up to a world where those events in my dreams are not true.But what i ask myself is even if i ( Read more... )

i just dont know what to say anymore,what do you say to person that ya kinda still care for but get none of it back.I mean in a way things had gotten better talking to her,but its just hard sometimes,when you are alone and you have nobody.I dont know if tonight i made a complete ass out of myself again or what.Its hard to no live in the past when ( Read more... )

"Strongbad are you first basing it with a piece of loose leaf?" ohhh good times

Its funny how things go in life.I cant really help myself but read her journal and say "huh sounds familar but yet diffrent."Its almost kinda fucked up in a way,she feels that way with him,but then i felt that way with her,and its just gets all fucking weird.Anymore things with her in my mind have gotten better,cant help but say yeah there are a ( Read more... )

What a night it has been,chicken spaghetti,wrestlemania and mickie james,i am in love with her haha,there is just something about the crazy psycho type thing or the fact she has a killer bod haha,but she is awesome!!!