I don't know how to explain all that's gone on in the past seven weeks in my life with words, I'm not even going to attempt. I've had good days, bad days, sad days, and mad days. Things have gone my way, and things haven't. I've lived, I've learned, I've made mistakes. I've grown up, I've fallen down. I've caved in, I've got out. I've gotten closer ( Read more... )

With a click of a few buttons, I just erased you from myspace.
Which pretty much means I just erased you from my life.

I really hope I don't regret it.

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Today was the closest i've ever come to giving myself to the Lord.
And honestly, it's the most amazing feeling I've experienced in so long.
I don't think I'll ever be the type to fully give my life to the Lord,
I might aspire to be that type all the time, but Idk if I could ever do it.
I could be completely off &; in a few days become that person,
but ( Read more... )

Disregard the beginning part of my last entry ( Read more... )

I need to learn how to think before I act.

Today was a wee bit drama filled at lunch.
But I meant what I said; about how i think it's really messed up that you went to him, even after I told you not to.
I haven't even come close to going up to her &; spilling the beans.. which would fuck you over.
[Ps, I've got nothing to lose anymore, I've told who I ( Read more... )

A lot of things in life are ten times easier being said, then being done.

Like studying for school. Everyone says they'll study for a test, but only half the people who actually say it; will actually study. [Procrastination] Or drinking&;partying. A lot of people say they look for a party or are going to party, but only some actually do party every ( Read more... )

I've contemplated a lot onto whether I'd write in this ever again.
I actually had a few entries written, but never posted them.  
Part of the reason i stopped posting was cause it's a new year &; this whole livejournal is all my past.. 
And I wanted to forget a lot of it, especially the last few entries, but not delete it.
But here I am, writing this.

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"I told myself If i did good, I'd stop doing the immoral things I've been doing &; turn my life around."
I respect that. Really, I do. Props to you for wanting to change your life around. I'm about to do the same. But FYI, lying is being immoral as well. And I do believe I've caught you in another lie. Another silly, stupid lie. I'm not falling for ( Read more... )

I think I finally realized it, it's what I told Michaela today.
"I know the difference between right &; wrong. I know exactly what I'm getting myself into, er, what i've gotten myself into, but at the same time I frankly don't care. I've spent so much time of my life; being in this situation, having to choose from what's right &; best for me, to ( Read more... )

Exactly like my voicemail said to you,

"Of all the fucking people in the world to fuck me over, you were honestly the last person in the WORLD who I thought would fuck me over. You know EXACTLY what you did, and I can't fucking believe you. Especially that your putting this ON ME, making me look like the bad person. When god knows, I've been trying ( Read more... )