I told him that I wasn't going to pressure him to give me an explanation if he didn't want to. But at the same time, if he was wanting to, the doorway was open for him to explain things to me. I told him that all I really wanted was for things to be un-awkward and have no tension between us. He replied saying he wanted things to be the way they ( Read more... )

Everythings going to complete shit.
No, that's a lie. One thing went wrong & everything came down with it.
And for once in my life, I have no idea how to handle it.

I can't go to my best friends about it, because I can't even explain or comprehend all of what's gone on - and actually make sense with it. I can't go to people who know/have an idea of ( Read more... )

Give us the chance to try and be together, please.
Stop interfering. It's not working.
It's just getting to me.
Not anyone else, but me.

So, if that's what your trying to do, you win.
But please, quit it.

You don't always get second chances.
Sometimes, you only get one.
So take the chance, or don't.
But don't take the chance away from someone else.

Sidenote ( Read more... )

Since last post, things have made a complete 360 turn, and I'm happy. Everything is better, ten times, twenty times, a million times better. :] Last week was probably the most eventful, hardest, & stressful week I've experienced. And, I do believe I cried more last week than I have in the 17 years I've been alive. But, that was last week & this ( Read more... )

I have so much I want to say to you, but I can't find the right words to state how I feel.

It's just unbelievable. I truly believed you, and every word you ever told me. Even the times I doubted you, you were able to assure me that nothing was wrong between us, that you truly cared about me & would not intenionally hurt me, that you were truly ( Read more... )

Status: In a Relationship

Interesting, to say the least. I thought you had no time? 
Damn, it's only been two weeks since we stopped seeing eachother.
To even grasp the thought of you being with someone else, in an actual relationship.
Un-fucking-believable. Don't want to believe it, but I know I have no choice.
Just ironic the timing of it, considering ( Read more... )

So much has gone on in such a little time.

Life's definently been a rollercoaster lately. Ups, downs, and turnarounds. Just when things get more normal & straight, life throws another curve at me. But i've gotten through the ride, whether it be on my own or with the support of a few good true friends, I've gotten through - but I know for a fact, the ( Read more... )

Catch me in the strong-willed mood, and I'm perfectly fine.
Catch me in this mood, and I'm a wreck.

"Every girl has that one boy that no matter 
how mad he makes her,  how bad he treats her, how much he puts her through, 
she'll always come back for more if given the opportunity."

It sucks that you've become that person that I'd go back to,
when in the ( Read more... )

Good news: I finally did it.
I got the random urge to end it.
And i did. I ended it.
It felt good, It felt like the right thing to do.
Cause I was holding on for the wrong reasons.
He's a great guy, we had a good fling. An amazing fling.
Things just weren't the way they used to be,
Things just weren't going where I wanted them to, 
And I got tired of ( Read more... )

Finished my first week of Senior year. Honestly I expected it to be a lot better but It wasn't bad. My teachers are all really cool & sweet, personally I have no problem with any of them. Kinda wish that my College Algebra teacher explained things a litle more, but I'm sure i'll get used to it all within a matter of time. Classes seem like they ( Read more... )