it's been awhile.  maybe not necessarily indicative of anything though.  too much in my head lately.  i really should be writing everything down.  i'm almost intellectually manic.  but due to the extreme state of my head, i haven't been feeling very social ( Read more... )

i cannot focus!!!!   arrrg.  stupid papers. 
also, i changed my desk and now i can look outside more easily.  it is fun.

have you ever wanted to sleep on a bed of marshmallows?

i'm no fucking buddhist, but this is enlightenment. 

you wanted a hit
to breathe me in
i watched as you exhaled
your sole
anticipation
the toll
reverberation
met my match
struck the flame
for your eyes
only
hid away
i always thought the one that got away
was just another fucking cliche

fuck.  this. 

first off i' like to thank the academy... ahem.  i don't know.  last night some random ass drunk man told me that i should be a professional actress or something.  he was really insistent.  he's like... "you should be in hollywood" which in the drunken state i was in sounded like the most brilliant idea ever reminding me of how i use to do theater ( Read more... )

people can be so disappointing.  no seriously.  one thing i have run into on more than one occasion lately that i find particularly maddening is the use of the term "proof" to modify the term "science."  basically whenever someone says "scientifically prove" or "scientifically proven" i want to scream.  instead i just sit silently of course.  but ( Read more... )

for some reason as i walked to school today, the mint i placed in my mouth to freshen my breath brought me back to sitting in the parking lot of my k-8 school/church before saturday evening mass.  my mother and i always went to 5pm mass on saturdays instead of  the traditional sunday morning service from the time i was in 4th grade or so until the ( Read more... )

something set off this chain reaction, not of nostalgia but of what ifs. sure, there are times when unknowingly one makes a choice that somehow leads to something significantly life altering. a fork in the road of sorts. i'm not settled on the whole free will versus fatalism (versus every possibility simultaneously and instantansously happening) ( Read more... )

"when you grow up among people who have so much [more than you] it's hard to appreciate what you have..."

from a conversation between a high school friend and i rehashing a long coming drug bust on an old friend... maybe our vices were just the feminine equivalent. not that i even really regret mine. heh.