Was watching the doves eating outside the workshop today. There is one who spends so much of his time chasing other doves away, that he looses sight of what he was trying to protect to begin with. Dave, (that’s my name for him), gets so focused on chasing doves away that he doesn’t notice when others come in and steal his food while he has his back ( Read more... )

Huwo, if this is read before you leave. Is going good here, have had a couple of big-ish nights so far. Chrissy should be sweet. Half days on chrissy, and boxing days, and allowance of 4 beers which we are actually allowed to take away from the bar area ;) Wine with lunch.. huge feed.. and 2 half days off in paradise ( Read more... )

*smiles at self confused* when did i become such a tripper.. and so jealous.

and how much of that is related to the blaze?

well, haven't been here in a long while. i guess because james no longer writes here, or if so, only writes private/ friend access entries, and i am no-longer one of those.. in this forum anyway ( Read more... )

*huge long tight hugs ( Read more... )

Huwo ( Read more... )

i think i am more at home up here now, than i am anywhere else..

that's kind of depressing.

um, scratch the comment about me being up that way tonight.. i haven't even left the house all night.

i know you aren't going to write to me, and it's probably better for you if you don't.. but i have been checking here regularly again since your sms's the other day.

'not good' is not understanding myself, not knowing where i am, what i'm doing, or why.
'not good' is hating myself for the way you feel.
'not good' is having no idea who i am or what i want.
'not good' is realising who i am to you.. and to carrie. realising how much it sucks to love me.

‘not good’ is pretending to be happy around everyone, because there is no-one left who I talk to ( Read more... )