Fuck em....fuck all

So i had my big sis over last night ..wooot. I love her so much , we hung out and of course are friend "V" was there, so there were good times. We had a good discussion about alot of different things after most of the house had gone to sleep. I'm so glad that things worked out the way they did. That I met her, that I ended up moving to Michigan.. ( Read more... )

So it is and always has been, my plan to get as far away from this part of the country as long as i can remember. Where to you may ask....SEATTLE.this plan has as of recently been more possible, I'm living as you all can tell in Michigan, a new thing to most , but not to me, I am in good hands as you might put it, and in these hands I'm readying ( Read more... )

You say You Hurt ( Read more... )

Today was great, I woke up early had a great cup of coffee. Did my daily stuff, then halfway through the day it hit. It always does. I know the signs, there clear as day, right on my fucking face. Yet I feel so hopeless to do anything about it. The depression always comes, hits as hard as it can, sometimes lasting for weeks. I guess I should count ( Read more... )

I still try and block out all my memories of her...the one i dated for about a month. Lovers come and go, but the key is friends. The things I've felt don't mean shit to her, I know that now. I kinda wish this would stop happening, the whole truely caring for someone and getting royally fucked and used over that emotion. I realize I care too much ( Read more... )

The times i most think i hurt people, are the times i hurt myself the most. What have i learned from all of this?? The most i can say is that im growing up. And it may hurt, but I'll be a better man for it all, this is to all my friends..I love you all....
~Stephen~

So i did it again, i left home. The place were i was born, the place i have so many memories about. I fucked up again. Im sry to everyone...my big bro , my big sis , and everyone who's come upon my path...i love u all but its better this way.. bye
~ Stephen~

So the end came sooner than i thought. My love has died, stolen from me, my parents are angry, I've lied again, fucked up again...damn this hurts so bad , the temptation is there, I want the pain to stop...but it won't ever and I know that... I know that so very well. And as I smoke the days last cig I'm left with the thoughts, the memories, the ( Read more... )

I have walked this road..this long hard road out of hell. I have come close so many times...the fall was so tempting, but i managed to resist. I know where I've been, and I could see where i was going...I don't want to go down that road ever again. I have been saved so many times. I owe my life to my friends and family...no matter how hard the road ( Read more... )