Well, that settles it. In my pathetic attempt to be liked by all and care what people thought about me, I managed to betray the one true friend I had. In truth I am an ASSHOLE. I sit around and bitch about the conniving shit my friends do, but I'm the worst of all. I love to gossip behind people's back and I love to one up the one upper. I have ( Read more... )

So, in roaming around my room i came across a photo from last years prom and all of a sudden the horribleness of this day lifted. I found the one moment in time when i was totally happy, in complete bliss. I figure all I have to do is hold on to the one moment till the next one comes along. I guess this day isnt that bad.

Ok, I promised myself that this holiday wouldn't get the better of me and im going to stick by that. I will not turn into my cynical self and bitch about this holiday. I just want to state the fact that this is a commercially driven pointless holiday. One should people show much they care one day a year, it should be that way everyday. Yes i am ( Read more... )

I honestly dont know why the world hates me. I mean seriously why is that that whenever I'm the slightest bit happy the world goes to shit. Theres a girl that i think im falling for and im really trying not to because she's unavailable and i dont feel like being depressed or let down again. Not to mention if we did date, it would end in like two ( Read more... )

Ok, so today kinda sucked, had to come to grips with a whole bunch of stuff all at once, some good some bad. I mean the fact that i'm probably going to have to go to Rutgers next is not thrilling but it has its upsides. I'll get to see all my friends again and on a more permanent basis as well as get to see my family all the time and i miss them ( Read more... )

Today was one of those days when your bored out of your mind and all the stuff you put on the back burner, burried in the back of mind creeps forward and makes you remember things. I hate these days! it just makes like blah, theres no other way to describe it. You feel like theres a void inside you and no way of filling it up.

Well after last night I've realized the club scene is most definately not for me, at least for now anyway. I think I need to get in better shape leg strength and muscle wise before I return to the dance floor. Thank god for one of my newly made friends telling me of a party back close to school that i went to, which was being broken up by the cops ( Read more... )

Well Kids, I haven't updated this in awhile and thought that I probably should. Well i got a 3.0 GPA for first semester and Christmas break was great. I needed a break from school and it was just what the doctor ordered. I'd like to be able to say that I'm seeing someone but that would be to much to ask for. Although at the moment I'm listening to ( Read more... )

So, its a day before thanksgiving and i just thought that as i sit here listening to my sappy music because i felt like it, that i would list all the things i'm thankful for. The first and most important, i'm thankful for my life 18 years ago a total stranger to me made a decision that gave me the gift of life and i thank her for that. I also thank ( Read more... )

Ok, so academically I'm doing greta in school and I'm loving it up here. Northeastern has wobderful professors and the work load isn't really that bad. Socially though, I'm hating it up here. I feel like an outcast and a loner. I think once again I'm slipping back into my tendencies to be the world's welcome mat. I saw my life up here being so much ( Read more... )