In one of my entries not to long ago I mentioned a converstaion I had with a elderly gentleman and I sit here listening to Meatloaf, i think he was right. If you love someone no wait is to long to get a chance to be with the one you love, it may have to get pushed to the back of your mind and the back of your heart, but its never forgotten. Love is ( Read more... )

I would first like to say that I'm kinda buzzed at the current moment. I wanna know why nice guys finish last, why is it that we get screwed over til the very end. I'm sick and tired of people telling me, oh, she's out there. I'm sorry if I'm not the greatest looking or have the biggest muscles, instead i have a personality. I guess im good for ( Read more... )

As i write this, i can feel my tear ducks filling and will eventually spill over and i will start to cry. Tonight i realized as i was searching for a philosophy topic how much like my grand father i am. He entilled in me so much and i just never realized it untill now. i can't believe its been a year that he's been gone already, i miss him so much ( Read more... )

Hey, guys whats up? I'm up here in Boston, hanging out and having a good time. I miss everyone back home more then you guys will ever know. Its seems no where in the world do they share the same humors that us Jersians do. I miss the stupid inside jokes, the poker tournaments, hell i miss the fucking DINER!!!!! I'll be home soon enoguh though, then ( Read more... )

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I sit here thinking that in less then two weeks i will be a high school graduate. I'm gonna be an adult, out on my own, something i've wished for since i started high school, but now i am a little afraid by it. God, i have no idea where time has gone, soon the summer will be gone and i will be leaving, with so many things unsaid and so many things ( Read more... )

Tonight was pretty ok, i got a five hundred dollar scholarship. It was today that fucking pissed me off. For those of you don't know, i have been trying to get two classes dropped for awhile now and friday i was told it was taken care of, come to find out today that they reversed the decision and i now have those two classes again, which means i ( Read more... )

Ok, so the weekend was awesome, prom then seaside with friends it was a blast. THen came today, fucking back to everyday bulshit and feeling like shit. As the end of the year approaches i look back and think have i really left a mark, some impression in the lives of those i've met. Will me and my friends really stay in touch when we all split, ( Read more... )

Yea so my last entry was kinda blah, this one is happy. Last night i went to my first PROM, the academy one and i got to go with the most amazing person in the world. She looked drop dead, fall over yourself gorgeous. We had a blast, it was so much fun, a lot better then i thought it would be, probably cuz of the company i was with. The place was ( Read more... )

I have finally figured out where i belong. It is where i've always said i've been, among the ghosts. It wasn't until now that i figured out what we truely were. As ghosts we are the people that are tolerated when were around and forgotten when were not. At least thats my current take on my world. I jsut feel that if i'm not the one planning things ( Read more... )