"It's hard to explain how I am getting by on so little from you. It's hard to believe that I would let myself
get so wrapped in you. There's got to be something that would be worthwhile for me to give to you.
We need a connection but you seem to push me far away from you."

Things are going well for a change. My hormones are...for the most part...back to normal. I'm not crying every single day like i was right after i had Hannah. I'm getting used to my little Hannah being around me all the time. The only thing that sucks is the lack of sleep im getting...but oh well ( Read more... )

Little Hannah Elizabeth Seamster is here =) She is such an angel.

Well, Looks like im going to have little Hannah before Christmas. Someone hold me...I'm scared =/

I don't know what's wrong with me....I don't know why I act the way I do. I guess I just feel sort of trapped sometimes...and I don't exactly know how to handle that. I love you Kitt...I really do...I'm just so damn confused and i'm going through so many changes and so many different emotions. I'm sorry I make you so frustrated...you're not the ( Read more... )

I havent updated in awhile...so here goes ( Read more... )

I got my license...woo hooo!

I feel disgusting right now. I wish my sister never told me what he said to her. I wish I wasn't bothered by every little thing but I can't help it. Just the thought of it makes me sick.

FUCK THIS WHOLE FUCKING HOUSE AND ALL THE LIARS IN IT. SOMEONE SAVE ME. I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. IM SORRY TO EVERYONE WHO THINKS IM A WORTHLESS PIECE OF LIFE. I'M SORRY FOR FUCKING UP MY LIFE...BUT MOSTLY IM SORRY FOR THE GUILT YOU HAVE TO FACE KNOWING THAT YOU ARE HORRIBLE PARENTS AND YOU NEVER DID AND NEVER WILL DO ANYTHING RIGHT. ALL YOU ( Read more... )

I don't really have anything to update this useless journal with...but i'm bored out of my mind...so i'll do it anyhow ( Read more... )