yeah. uh. well, i'm an idiot.

i think it was best said by vonnegut:
"all people are insane. they will do anything at any time, and god help anybody who looks for reasons."

i started speaking to amado three years after we broke it off. that was last summer. we literally had no contact whatsoever for that entire time. he hurt me in a very bad way and i told him i would never speak to him again. but the hurt faded, i got curious, etc. we've been in contact since then but haven't been talking often and we haven't seen ( Read more... )

i don't believe in destiny but i can't help but think that right here right now is where i'm meant to be......

i'm feeling like this is rock bottom ( Read more... )

welp.
that was a complete fuckin waste of time.
new zealand here i come woooooo!

in the middle of a very strange time in our relationship. i think over the winter we became too co-dependent and spent too much time together. yes, it was nice, spending so much time cuddling and talking on the couch. but i think we overdid it a little. the past couple days i've been in denver. i had to do a clinic day in the emergency department ( Read more... )

that moment when you realize you're mad at your boyfriend but you are really just as much to blame as he is.
it's very humbling.
resolution: blame less. think more.

he said it's just a way to sell flowers and chocolate.
but i like flowers and chocolate.
there better at least be some chocolate.

super busy. work four-five days a week. school three days a week. the apartment is so messy. we keep saying, let's clean tonight! but then we don't. we're makin plans and stuff. for the future. it's very strange. i've never been in such an easy relationship. it just comes naturally to both of us. we get along so incredibly well. we rarely fight or ( Read more... )

january 1st, 2012. i was hammered drunk in a pink tie dyed mini skirt at the new years eve party of a fat hawaiian man in hana, maui. i lived at a tropical flower farm in the jungle. my house was little more than a shack with wide, screened off openings where windows should be. my bed was small but insanely comfortable. the only other furniture was ( Read more... )