Life has turned into a meaningless blur, of which I am a helpless observer, a prop in the background. I can't force myself to speak. I can't force myself to take action. I am only a talking head and the things that come out are nothing but outdated catchphrases and overused similes and vague metaphors. They will never know what I am really thinking ( Read more... )

My plan was to spend x-mas drunk and alone, but Mari convinced me to come hang out with her family in Salem, so here I am, bored and wanting to go home ( Read more... )

I am having way to much fun in Portland. It's a nonstop party ( Read more... )

Jesus. I moved to Portland and got blacked out drunk on the first day. I think I was hitting on some random people...whatever, thank god I got shot down. Alcohol is poison. Poison, I tell you! Gotta not get back into that shit. Our neighbors left us a note telling us to shut up. It was out of control. There is a vegan pizza place by my house. It's ( Read more... )

I've moved to Portland! I'm moving the rest of my stuff up tomorrow (tuesday) because those evil crazy people I took care of complained about me and my uncle kindly "suggested" I leave now. Hahaha. That's ok....I couldn't fucking handle working one more weekend there. They just better pay me what they owe me! We'll see. Anyway, that means I can ( Read more... )

My life is so fucking dull it's unbearable. I do nothing. Today was my day off and I didn't even leave my house until it was time to go to work again. Iris was supposed to come but didn't. I was sad. It's been like a week since I've seen her! She moved to Portland and now I have nothing to do and no one to hang out with. I can't stand it here ( Read more... )

Ha. This is my song. It's so about me, how sad is that? This is the song I imagine someone dedicating to me right before they dump me ( Read more... )

I read my horoscope in this book at my brother's house. It was from the 60's or the 70's, I can't remember. Anyway, it was very detailed, and eerily accurate. It said all this weird shit, things I don't even admit to myself. It said I was incapable of ever having a normal human relationship (friendship or otherwise) because I'm simply too weird, or ( Read more... )

I'm in school now, I decided to take all my money and go to school instead of Asia. And I hate school. It's terrible. I somehow got into a math class I have no business being in. I'm lost. I feel very unstable right now. My living situation is possibly shaky, and I need it to change. My job is crappy and i'm getting fired soon anyway. I just ( Read more... )

i'm running out of time i'm out of step and ( Read more... )