Grandma's dead. Other grandma might have cancer, again. Jay is dead. Dignity, self respect, self-control, all dead. I'm bailing. Last fucking straw. Last fucking bale of hay, more like it. Car accidents. Ruined bicycles. Failing livers. Gotta get out while there's still a reason to live.

Feeling better now, I have recouped. Life is normal, things are ok. I'm going on vacation soon, too ( Read more... )

If I become a nun, will you still love me? If I spend my days in solitude and meditation, in mourning ( Read more... )

Went camping. Fucking debauchery. I feel so dirty. Had a really good time though. There's something about the woods that drives people temporarily insane. Mixed with beer and too much fucking drama...wow. I think I may have made a fool of myself. I know it, actually. I'm sorry.

Working...god it's lame. Covering for my uncle's vacation this week....working like 5 days straight. LAME! It's the world's most boring fucking job. And when I get off I just go sit in my room and drink cheap beer and watch syndicated television ( Read more... )

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I'm bored and lonely and half drunk and missing Elisa! She's my hero. Against me is so depressing when you're sitting alone in the middle of the night thinking of all the ways youre life has gone wrong and how many more ways there still are. And when you've got nothing but this, and you can't take the thought of staying awake for another second but ( Read more... )

I just got a raise and a promotion at work, but I really didn't want it, because I'm trying to leave! I guess I can save money (yeah right) quicker now, but I'll be working 4 nights a week, plus some days, which means I'll only get to sleep in my own bed 3 nights! That is incredibly lame, since I love my bed more than anything. On the bright side, ( Read more... )

I have decided to pursue my one true dream in life, even if I suck at it and will be at the bottom of my field. I cannot lie to myself any longer! I will not be satistfied unless this is what I do. I will learn. I will practice. I will perservere. I feel like a big weight has been lifted off my soul ( Read more... )