I need to do some things for myself, to make myself happy. The number one thing is not to write in this journal. It was pretty much a mistake to come back, and it would be a bigger mistake to stay. I will never disappear from the lives of some of you (who else will cook naked for Scarlett?) so don't act like I am. I'm here in spirit. ;) And I would ( Read more... )

Lately, all I want to do is please everyone. I was supposed to be in Indianapolis, so I went for a couple days. Smiled for the cameras, talked to some people, did that whole thing. Then Scarlett asked me to come visit. And how can I say no to her? It's impossible. So I sneaked off to the big slumber party in her (and Parker's) apartment. I'll be ( Read more... )

Well Scarlett has me wrapped around her finger so I left Indiana today but we'll pretend it was yesterday because she wants me so bad, and now I'm lucky number seven in the Parker and Scarlett apartment. Hi Parker I hope you don't mind. I'm also taking Scarlett trick-or-treating next Sunday.

I'm doing something I normally wouldn't do. Setting AIM so anyone can instant message me. I have nobody on my buddy list (the only two people that are ever actually online are Scarlett and Parker), and I'm sick of talking to myself. Instant message me. I'll talk.

I've been in Indianapolis since early yesterday morning. Love's Brother is being screened here at the Heartland Film Festival. This was one of my favorite movies to film, right after Bootmen. I'm excited it's finally going to be released in the States, considering it was released elsewhere about six months ago. Still might be a while until it's in ( Read more... )

Very little makes much sense to me right now. There is one thing that does, however. Three simple words that speak the truth better than anything else. We fit together. Mentally, physically, emotionally. We understand each other, and just simply, we fit together. Limbs tangled together.. You do fit with me, whether you want to believe it or not ( Read more... )

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All my efforts seem to have been wasted. Do I give up, or do I keep trying and hurting myself more in the process?

I'm not in MBP yet so I can't post this there but come on I'm more fit for queen than anyone else.

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I’m not sure what it takes with you, or what I need to do. How can I get you to give me another chance? You have my promise in not hurting you again. I couldn’t do that to you. I understand why you could be wary right now, but I’m trying to prove to you that I’m not going anywhere. I’m here for the long run. We will work, because there’s no way we ( Read more... )