Reading through my past journals and old entries. It's funny how much life has changed. How much I have been through. Devan was alive the last time I wrote in here, he is now deceased. I wasn't addicted. I hadn't met Joey Jordison yet, which has made my life completely insane. Living the life of a rock star vicariously is not only unhealthy, it's ( Read more... )

Wow. It's so crazy to see how much shit has changed since the last time I updated this. If I only knew then what happened now. I wouldn't have believed it..all the lies..all of his fucking lies. I'm so pissed right now. I'm actually just reaching the end of this shit..and then..it was sooo long ago. Things were so good, or so I thought. Were, as in ( Read more... )

It really seems like forever since I've last been on here. Things have been really well; summer has been amazing.

Lots of things have happened, both good and bad. I'm so excited for the new year ahead!

Hey.

I haven't updated in a while. Sorry for that.

All is well here I guess you can say; Dev and I just hit our nine month, vball is vball, and yeah haha. I started modeling/acting shit again, and I already got five new jobs which is pretty kick ass. I get to start rehearsing for a summer clothing fashion show haha. Yeah..

But uhm, its Spring ( Read more... )

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Hey.

Nothing has been really "up" lately. Dev's in Ohio which completely blows, I miss him. But he's been a butt lately, I guess its my fault because I can't trust anyone ever, but I can't help my emotions and the fact I have shit for a temper. I need counceling..I think. I can't help it, I care so much about it..I worry he's going to mess up.

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Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence


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Today was a pretty good day. Devan and I made up and I think we are back to being young birds in love. I couldn't be anymore happy. but it still feels like something is wierd or missing. I don't know why.

I talked to Chad on the phone tonight, he's wierd on the phone. It was the first time we've ever really talk talked on the phone haha. He's ( Read more... )

Today Graham and chad came to my volleyball game. Later on Kari and Steve came. We won so it rocked. Afterwards Gizza and Chad swopped me up, and we went out for donuts haha. They are so wierd. Its frightening.

Devan and I still aren't talking. He sent me a text message tonight and told me that he loved me. Ha....

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Since you've been gone..
Things have been suprisingly good lately. Devan and I are still on our break, I don't know what is really going to happen with that. But, for some reason, I'm really okay with whatever does happen. If he leaves, I'm ready, if he stays..I don't know.
I went to the basketball game tonight to watch John play. He rocks so much ( Read more... )